Chewing with your mouth open and other annoying habits humans have

My day has flown by but I accomplished much.  Some were just little things, like acing a test in History of Rock and Roll class or developing film I shot.  I had a five minute conversation with Tesla.  That girl is just my ball of sunshine.  There were bigger things, of course.  When isn’t there bigger things going on in my life?

Between my classes I went to the library to do some studying for my R&R quiz.  While trying to keep twenty songs in my head I was interrupted by a cell phone call.  It wasn’t a number I recognized.  That’s because the West Manchester police don’t usually call my digits.

So I am told to take down the audio of John having a meltdown in the front yard over a purple jacket (still missing) and how I make a big deal about him chewing with his mouth open.  Yes, I did tell him when he chewed with his mouth open four-plus years ago, but what does that have to do with anything we were discussing?

Meanwhile, Tesla has to either listen to me be berated or be pulled into the conversation by her dad.  He drills her, forcing her to answer his questions.  She is upset, scared and confused.  She, like me, didn’t get what the big deal was.  She had another jacket on and eight more upstairs to choose from.  It had to be the jacket she wore from her dad’s household.  I don’t know why.  It’s a control thing.

What do I get when I arrive home today? My neighbor up my ass about walking my dog around the yard.  Correct answer!  Good job, you must follow my life on Facebook.  Even though I pick up Ying poo, she feels the need to be nasty to me.  I don’t even look at her and she verbally attacks me.  Get a life!

Minding my own poo,

~P.

Tesla’s first camera 1

I gave Tesla my old digital camera on the condition she take care of it.  She filled her memory card so I’m going to download her first series of photos.

My mini-me photographer.

I just reviewed Tesla’s photos.  ROFLMAO why are kids so fascinated with their poop?

~P.

Bicycles and the Magic 8 Ball

We had a magical weekend riding bicycles, asking the Magic 8 Ball important questions and posing for pictures.  Our kids love to have their photo taken!

A dog day weekend worth

So I’m really enjoying my photography class.  I have lined-up some models (a nude included) to work on my portrait photos.  While I’m doing that, I’m also taking pictures with my digital camera.  For shits and giggles ya know?

Wow, my SD card has 86 pictures on it!  Time to load them and see what I have as blog material photos.  The pictures are anything from me goofing off experimenting, pictures of the kids and some shots arranged for artistic appeal.

Ying is a great model.  Such expression and depth in his photo shoot.   🙂

~P.

 

Dear John~It is NOT about you

Dear John,

I realize you probably like when I cry.  Makes you feel good.  I realize as much as you tell me you don’t read my blog, you most likely do.  You tell me you just have to hear about it from 5 to 10 people.  In reality that narrows it down to 1.  You are known for your exaggerations.  (Sorry to hear you’re not getting laid-you’ll remedy that)

You keep bringing up the past, while I push for the present.  You claim I hurt you in the past, that I didn’t want to spend time with our daughter, that I was a drug addict, that I spent money wildly.  Seriously, even if it were 100% true, what does any of that have to do with now?  Our past is OVER and I have moved on.  I realize you have not and you are waiting for me to say I was the one who caused our break-up.  That will never happen.

Tonight you asked if I thought you were stupid.  Well, I do think you are stupid but not due to the reason you asked.  You seem to believe if you let Tesla spend time with me, I will file for custody.  I can file whether you let her spend time with me outside the custody order or not.  It’s not about what you want, it’s about what she wants.  I know you listen to our conversations and hear her counting off how many days until she is with me.  I’m not putting that into her head, she puts it into mine.  I don’t ask her if she wants to live with me, she tells me every chance she gets.  It’s not that she doesn’t love her father, she just wants to live with her mother.

You bring up how you were married for 18 years.  Please -spare me, it’s already come out in court that you easily broke your marriage of 18 years to have a chance to be a father.  I seriously believed you loved me and I was special.

Call me naivete or just plain stupid.  I accept either.

~P.

Why do I blog about my life?  To get me through it.  I have a super supportive man in my life, unlike the past.

No need for perfect

Her ear wasn’t perfect, but it didn’t matter.  It seemed to me, her beauty came from within.  Beauty in the twinkle of her eye, beauty in her giggle, beauty in the tassels of her hair.  Very little hair indeed.

Even her tearful cries were beautiful-like that of a lamb separated from its mother.  And once quieted, rocked to sleep-resting as a content angel-my most beautiful creation.

~~~To my beautiful daughter Tesla.  We had three minutes to write about what we believe to be “the most beautiful thing.”

~P.

cast cutting and bone pins pulled

Tesla was a bit scared at the thought and sound of the cast cutting saw.  Even after the nurse put the saw against her own hand to show her it couldn’t cut skin.  The sound is intimidating.

Dr. Bixler told Tesla that she had super strong bones.  When he went to pull the four pins out, they didn’t want to budge.  He said normally they slide right out.  What Dr. Bixler didn’t know was for the two years of her life, she only wanted milk.  I’d say she survived on 95% milk, 5% food.  Her doctor said that she was perfectly healthy and eventually she would want more than milk.  He was right, now she only wants McDonald’s.  🙂

Tesla was a trouper for the pin removal.  Even with it being more difficult than expected, she winced a little bit but didn’t cry out or shed a tear.  Her doctor and nurse complimented her on being such a good patient, better than most all their other patients.  I was very proud of her and her toughness.  That’s my girl, chip off the ole block.

If my camera battery hadn’t died, I would have recorded the pin removal.  I only managed a few pictures of her Frankenelbow.

Cross your fingers….no more broken bones!

Dear John~And the truth is revealed

Dear John,

We were all wondering (Dale, Zeth, Suz and I) what the heck you were doing at the playground with Tesla so early in the morning.

Well now we all know….YOU were playing softball while our daughter was at the playground by herself.  Even worse, Tesla says there weren’t any other little kids there but there was two big boys.

Why the hell are you letting Tesla at the playground alone while you play softball?  I know how fucking important softball is to you.  Hell, you were ready to blow me off the same day I miscarried with our second child because you had a softball game.  I had to guilt you into staying home with Tesla and I after I lost our baby.  (which you blamed on me)

Obviously you couldn’t watch Tesla while you played ball.  She said she screamed really loud because her arm hurt so bad.  I told her I was sorry she got hurt and she shouldn’t have been there alone.  Her response was, “Daddy said I could.”

Maybe I should be glad she only suffered a broken arm (which needs surgical pins implanted tomorrow.)  It could have been even worse, say someone kidnapping her.  Bob Hoffman stadium isn’t exactly the safest neighborhood for a little girl to be playing alone on a playground.

What the fuck were you thinking?  Oh wait, I know….only about yourself.  To the point you wouldn’t even let Tesla be with me after you were too busy to keep an eye on her to start with.  It’s not like it would have hurt her more to spend the rest of the day with her mom.

Here’s a thought!  You could have called me and told me to meet you at the softball field so you can play your game and Tesla could spend time with me.

God forbid you let me have a little extra time with Tesla.

Once a selfish bastard, always a selfish bastard.

I can’t wait to be divorced from you…..and have custody of our daughter.

~P.

Dear John~aka Mr. Know It All

Dear John,

You wonder why I get so pissed off at you.  Did you ever stop to think it’s because you firmly believe you know everything but when it’s convenient, you plead ignorance?  This morning is a great example.

Dale and I stayed up late watching movies (which you probably know since my Facebook is so closely followed by you and your minions) and I forgot to plug my cellphone in.  So this morning when you have Tesla at the playground (and I’m really curious if it was you or Heather since I know Heather takes Tesla to church, not you) and she falls off the monkey bars, you resort to calling Walt to notify me that Tesla is injured.

Really, the only person you know how to get in contact with is my father?  Not that long ago, you had your lawyer pursing Dale as a convicted felon.  You knew his first, middle and last name, birthday, address etc. in an attempt to keep Tesla away from me, yet you don’t have Dale’s phone number?  I know I’ve called you from Dale’s phone.  He’s also in the phone book.  It’s also all over his truck in large letters advertising his computer business.  Amazing how you manage to know everything you possible can about Dale and I except how to contact him if there is an emergency and I can’t be reached.

So you have Dale’s number now that I’ve called you and made a point of you saving it for emergency purposes.  Dale would never have a problem with you calling his cell to relay a message about Tesla.  Unlike that bitch of a girlfriend you continue to entertain.  Heather doesn’t want me to EVER call or text her cell, even when she has Tesla because your off doing whatever it is that makes you happy at the moment.  It’s well-known how you do what you want, when you want.  Hell, you even do who you want with no consequences because you are the king, top dog and big man of your universe.

Now Tesla has a broken left arm.  Not just broken and a cast, but broken so badly she has to have surgery tomorrow.  You knew how much I wanted to see my baby girl this morning at the hospital but would you allow me to come in and see her.  Oh hell no.  She was being discharged and you were leaving immediately even though I was already on the way in.  I said I’d come get her at the house if you weren’t going to wait and you shot that down also.

Our daughter breaks her arm and you won’t even let me see her.  That’s sad John.  Instead, you make her and I wait until the court appointed time of 7PM tonight.  Does that make you feel like you’re in control?  Not allowing mother and daughter to see one another after she suffers a traumatic experience.

The only thing that kept me from completely losing my temper was speaking to Tesla and hearing the pain medication was helping her.  I guess until I pick her up tonight I will remain in the dark concerning what really happened.  Tesla reassured me I can get her at 7 PM, clearly you already pumped that into her head.

I managed to raise two boys who never broke a bone, yet you and your lawyer are constantly doubting my parenting abilities.  Every serious injury Tesla has had happened on your watch.  From four-wheeler accidents to broken arms….maybe it’s time custody is heard by a judge once again.  This time, I’m bringing back-up.  ~P.

Manchester Playground Carnival 2012

First a BIG thank you to Donna Burns for inviting us to the Manchester Playground Carnival.

The carnival had just about everything except over-priced rides and games.  Tickets were priced at 25 cents each and if you bought $20 worth, an extra 10 were thrown in for free. That $20 worth of tickets lasted the entire three hours we were there.  Not just for Tesla, but Blaine, Zeth, Suz and myself.  Dale wasn’t interested in playing the games but did enjoy watching us have a blast.

The bounce houses, slide and obstacle course were great for the kids and the dunk tank made quite the splash also.  There were all types of food vendors, retail vendors, face painting, Rose Radio played music, and the coolest display was the reptile petting zoo by Critter Caravan.  The giant lizard had me amazed, along with the boa constrictor and the enormous turtle.

The big surprise of the night was the cake walk and prize stand.  I have never left a carnival where we needed bags to carry out all the prizes.  Tesla even won a chocolate cake in one of the cake walks.

What a delightful evening we had!  One that we all enjoyed and it didn’t break the bank.

Kudos to Manchester on the annual carnival!  If you missed it, you missed tons of fun for all ages.  There’s always next year…

Thanks again Donna!  We wouldn’t have known there was a carnival going on if it wasn’t for you!

~P.

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