I used to refer to my husband as my stalker. “I married my stalker” I would say.
John would listen to my phone calls or hide and listen in on my conversation. He was an expert at sneaking around for being such a big guy. Of course he could always get someone to “spy” on me if he couldn’t do the “checking up” himself. I thought once I managed to escape my “prison guard” I wouldn’t have to worry about feeling like I was in prison.
Sure, John let me have a little freedom. He preferred to go where every I was going or have me in his presence 24-7. Even after 3 years of separation, he still can’t let go of me and move on. Maybe it’s the divorce holding him up also.
John invades my dreams and my reality. Almost every night I dream about John. Lucky me huh? Sometimes it’s fighting, sometimes his girlfriends are involved. Kelly still pops into dream land now and then. Usually Heather isn’t part of my dreams. Whew!
Don’t ask me why I dream about my stalker. I guess I just haven’t shaken him from my subconscious yet….if that is even possible.
I checked my cellphone not to long after I got up from bed. At 8:58 AM John sent me a text: “I see your resume classes tomorrow.”
I find that creepy. Like when he sent me a text at a Revolution’s ballgame that Tesla, Jarrid and I were attending with friends. John was there too and shortly after I arrived he sent me this text: “I see you.” Can you say creeper????? I can’t believe I married this guy!!
So I sent him a reply to his creepy class text: “yes” and a little later “how do you see that?” He never replied. I’m sure he’s trying to get me to say I won’t have Tesla with me tomorrow and his response will be “then you can’t have her because the court order says she must be in your presence while in my custody.” Would that surprise me? NOT AT ALL.
I don’t look into where John is while he has Tesla. I already know he gets lots of different people to babysit while he is out doing God knows what. He is just obsessed with this never-ending relationship and how he can control me and Tesla every chance he gets. You would think with Heather and her 4 children he would be too busy to pay attention to my schedule.
Apparently not,
~P.



