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May 19, 2012

Dear John~sad sad sad

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Letters he nevers learn from

Dear John,

I went all the way to Windsor for Tesla’s May Fair this morning.  You knew you had to work, but still wouldn’t let me pick up Tesla insisting Heather was keeping her.

Why did you say to me, “It’s open to the public.  You can go.”?   I only wanted to go with Tesla….

So I go, only to be told Heather isn’t taking Tesla.  I didn’t want to attend the May Fair without my child.

After 3 hours, I left.  Heather wouldn’t answer my calls or texts and you were busy working so that meant zero help as usual.  This could have ALL been arranged days ago when I asked to take her to the May Fair.  Your flexible schedule you brought up so many times in court hasn’t really panned out John.

There was NO reason I couldn’t pick Tesla up at 11AM for the May Fair, other than you and Heather didn’t want me to.  Instead, Tesla had to attend all the practices of the children you and Heather keep telling her are sisters and a brother.

SAD SAD SAD SAD

~P.

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May 17, 2012

Document Design at YCP

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The Doc Design class at YCP was very helpful.  Here are a few designs I did or worked on.  The Spartan poster was mine alone and I hope it goes to print for the Fall 2012 term!

Project3

amykorst

Thanks for checking them out!

~P.

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May 16, 2012

Web of Secrets 2012

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Everyone has secrets.  That’s a fair statement to make.

Some have more than others.  Others have some heavy weight on their shoulders as they continue to keep their secrets, secrets.

Lauren Robinson, a senior at York College created her Web of Secrets 2012 for the Senior Art Exhibit.  The room looked like a massive spider had spun a web, taking up the majority of the room in Wolf Hall.  A supply of papers with string tied to them and pencils to write your secrets down were off to the side.

Robinson’s web revealed York College Campus’s secrets.  They were difficult to read while attached to the web.  After the exhibit I asked if she was interested in selling the secrets or allowing me to copy them.  She agreed to me copying the secrets and I’ve worked hard on making the secrets easy for anyone to read.

The first time I read all the secrets, at home, alone…I cried.  Not just a few tears, but an all out bawl.  These secrets reveal so much pain on campus and yet they are anonymous so there is nothing that can be done, other than share these secrets.  There are groups on campus to join so loneliness can be replaced with new friendships.  TWLOHA and LAMBDA groups should be huge at York.  These secrets can be shocking….I hope those who need help in dealing with life go to the student counseling center in the Student Union and talk things out.

Life is precious.  Life is short.  Life is unpredictable.  Life causes secrets.  Life goes on.

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May 13, 2012

Happy Mother’s Day

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Happy Mother’s Day to all the mommies out there.  If in your heart you are a mom to someone that today is your day to celebrate!

I have all three of my eggs here at home with me.  One is reading my college papers, one is sleeping and one is coloring on wooden blocks.  Any guesses to which kid is doing what?!

It’s a great day and I sure love my kidlings.  Even if one is sleeping on the living room floor…

OXOXOX,

Pattie

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May 10, 2012

Want to read about Looners?

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Hello all….I am not able to publish my paper on balloon fetishist just yet.

If I am submitting to a magazine, scholarship, competition or scholarly journal, I don’t believe I can have previously published what I submit.

That’s the bad news.

The good news is if you email me a request to my school address at pcrider@ycp.edu I will send a portion of the paper.  State in your email that you will not share the segment without giving credit to me and my blogsite.  Everyone gets the same thing.  A preview I suppose as it’s actually not finished.  😉

Thank you for supporting my writing and research!   It has been awesome!!!

Loon Writer and Happy Popper,

Pattie

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May 8, 2012

Dear Meghan~missing you

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Dear Meghan,

This afternoon, I just learned in person from Travis K that you were in a car accident and died.  I was making copies of the secrets from Lauren Robinson work of art “The Web of Secrets 2012” when Travis approached me.  He didn’t know what I was coping.  As soon as he told me I got goosebumps and looked down at the copier.  Meghan you are gone and I will never see or talk to you again.  We were both writing majors.  We shared story ideas, work-shopped story lines and enjoyed discussing art.  I wonder if one of the secrets I copied may have been yours…

I know you treasured life and you touched the lives of many.  You have been released from the earth to a much better place and even get wings to boot.  I am happy for you, but feel loss as expected.  Bless your surviving family.  God has a plan for you in heaven and I am certain it involves endless ink in a gold pen and sheets of the finest grade paper stock imaginable.

Rest in peace my friend,

Pattie

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May 7, 2012

the gratification

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May 4, 2012

Dear John~confusing who?

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Letters he nevers learn from

Dear John,

Tesla and I were happy she spent the night last night.  That was so much better than just getting two hours together.  She naturally complained for a little, but I finally got across to her that we will just have to enjoy the time we get.  One overnight wasn’t enough, she wanted more.  It’s  hard to explain to Tesla why she has to live with mostly you (and the gang) when she wants to live with me.  Telling her a judge decided means nada to Tesla.  I might as well tell her the Wizard of Oz decided.

Enjoy your time with Tesla and stop being so damn rigid with your ridiculous, unrealistic rules and schedule.  Your world revolves around yourself.  It’s so obvious, yet you don’t see it.  I know you better than you know yourself.  I even understand why you are the way you are.  I get why you filed for divorce….and don’t start with the cheap bags of pot you bought for me or the diet pills I was taking back in 2008.  Neither are your reason for filing for divorce.  You know it.  I know it and a select number of people know it.  Obviously Heather doesn’t know or doesn’t get it yet.  It all depends on how honest you were with her about the dissolving of our relationship.

So back to this morning and Tesla, what was the big deal about Tesla and I doing her homework before school?  It wasn’t like she asked if I could come inside my home and help do it.  She was fine with bringing it out to the car and writing on a book or the hood of my car.  You and I both know it is very simple homework.  Well, I assume you know but Tesla does say it’s mostly Heather who does homework with her.  We could have done the homework and I would have been on my way.  Tesla would have her homework done with plenty of time before the bus came to spend with you if you so wished.  I saw Heather’s vehicle in the drive so I suppose she could have even had time with Tesla.

Sadly, Tesla had to come outside in tears because you wouldn’t let her do her homework away from the island in the kitchen.  I was confused.  Why can’t she do her homework with me?  What is the big fucking deal this time?  You take such pleasure in telling me what I can and can’t do with my child just because a judge decided that Tesla should continue living in our house.  You thrive on it I swear.  Thank God the stupid signing for Tesla bullshit has ceased.  I never did hear from my lawyer that your lawyer, or even Heather’s lawyer, sent him a damn thing.

That’s ok, eventually you’ll hear from my lawyer.

~P.

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Apr 30, 2012

Parque de Pinchot

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Cuando era niña me gustaba ir a la escuela. En la escuela primaria mi profesora favorita fue la Senora Holtzapple. Compartimos el mismo cumpleaños, el 9 de octubre. Le dí un cactus como un regalo.
En el verano mis amigos y yo montaba nuestras bicicletas y pasó nadando en el Parque de Pinchot. Hemos jugado etiqueta y escuchar nuestras cintas de cassette.
Mi programa de televisión favorito era The Dukes of Hazzard porque yo estaba enamorada de John Sneider. Fue el actor quien jugó Bo Duke y era muy guapo.

Mi grupo favorito de música como un niño fue Sha-na-na. Tuvieron una música y comedia mostrar.
Cuando no me sentía bien, que me sale en la cama. Mi madre me traería la medicina.

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Apr 30, 2012

My Legs are Hungry Too

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The noise I can hear coming from my stomach can only described as growling.  The gurgley grumbling belly aching noise that is accompanied by pain that almost causes you to laugh at your body for being impatient.

Often I’ve told Tesla I don’t know where she puts all that she eats.  Or, I’ll ask her if she filled her legs up too?  One day Tesla’s stomach was growling and I heard it.  She said her “leg was hungry” and I thought that was so cute.

My leg is so hungry it’s ready to pop off and make something in the kitchen its self.

Focus on the food.

~P.

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