Stone Pilgrimage

This is how my mind works.  If you scare easily, stop reading now.

Ok, you are still reading….you must be a glutton for punishment.  There are many of you out there.

On Tuesday, June 19, I had the television on the History channel and they were showing a marathon of Ancient Alien Theory, a show I absolutely love.  Giorgio A. Tsoukalos is my favorite speaker on this show.  He has crazy man hair and likes it.

Giorgio A. Tsoukalos

I was listening to Giorgio talk about the Mayan calendar, extra-terrestrial life, UFOs, etc. and I was overcome with the desire to get my ass to Georgia to see the Georgia Guidestones.  I don’t remember how I first heard about the stones but last year I watched Brad Meltzer’s Decoded episode featuring them.   I also did a tremendous amount of research to make it part of my New Religious Movement final thesis.  My fictional religion was based on the Guidestones and Lady Gaga as a charismatic leader for the apocalyptic end of the world.

http://girlboxer1970.com/2012/01/01/lady-gaga-leader-of-the-church-of-ga/

Don’t be silly.  I don’t believe Lady Gaga is going to take over the world even if she has enough little monsters following her to do so.

I had previously looked into traveling by train to Georgia but that didn’t seem like an appropriate action.  I wanted to drive to Georgia in the worst way so I called for a car rental price.  That was a no go because I didn’t have a major credit card or a job and Dale could not rent a car for me to drive.  This was a very personal, spiritual trip that I wanted to take alone or possibly with my sister Suz.  She just started a new job so she wasn’t going to be able to travel.  With no way to legally rent a car, I decided I was going to take my 20 year old Honda Accord and travel in faith.

I planned to drive to Cummings, GA first (near Atlanta) and stay with Dale’s sister, Georgie.  In my duffel bag I had a pair of jeans, a nice blouse, a York College t-shirt, two pair of shorts, swimsuit and other essentials I expected to need.  Grabbed Ying’s dog food, my laptop, camera and cell and I walked out the door for Georgia at 1:30 PM without telling anyone.

A few hours into driving I texted Dale “I’ve got GA in my GPS!” and he responded “good!”  It wasn’t until he came home from work that he realized I meant I was driving at that moment.  My leaving without saying goodbye upset him and I completely understood why he was upset.  I explained that I believe God wanted me to leave right then.  I didn’t question myself with this belief and I didn’t want to give anyone the opportunity to question it.  There would be no one trying to talk me out of driving my car over 1,000 miles to see this granite monument if Ying and I just left.

At first it seemed like I was making great time.  I was passing through states quickly and my GPS (speaking in Spanish) gave an arrival time of 2:00 AM.  I drove straight through to South Carolina before I stopped at midnight at a rest area and fell asleep in my car.  Ying who had been napping the entire trip stood guard while I dozed.  I awoke at 6 AM seriously cramped from sleeping in a Honda Accord.  After a potty trip and some stretching, Ying and I hit the road.

We drove for about an hour and I couldn’t keep my eyes open.  At the next rest stop I pulled off again and slept until 8 AM.  I know the dangers of driving when you are so sleepy you can’t keep your eyes open.  Another hour of rest did me wonders and for the second time on Wednesday, we left for Georgia.

At noon I noticed Elberton had popped up on the GPS and suddenly driving to Cummings first was no longer an option.  I texted Dale I was going to the stones first, then to his sister’s house.  That didn’t happen either…

I didn’t know the road the stones were on so I just put Elberton into the GPS.  I saw the Georgia Guidestones on the hill before the GPS announced we were in Elberton.  There was a small sign noting the Guidestones location on Guidestone Road.  I had already passed the road so I turned around.  If you are not looking, the sign and the stones would easily be missed.

At first I felt giddy at finally reaching my destination 24 hours after leaving Pennsylvania. But as I drove up the gravel road, I was overcome with emotion.  This was not the reaction I had expected.  Tears were flowing out of my eyes and my nose was running so bad it grossed me out.  I had no tissues or napkins left in the car so I opted for my York College t-shirt.  I couldn’t get out of my car at first, even after all that driving.

After making a video with Ying full of crying, blubbering and probably not making much sense, I exited my car and headed to the stones.  There were other people there also.  Two men appeared to be making a documentary and were interviewing another man.  I didn’t pay much attention to them as I walked towards the stones.  When I came around to the English inscription and read it in person, touching the granite, I lost it again.

The documentary guys had finished talking to the other man and now they were apparently watching me.  I have no idea who they were and their white passenger van gave no clues to their business.  No one else got out of the van even though I could see the outline of other people through the tinted windows.

The tears were really rolling while I leaned on that granite stone trying to grasp what all it meant for the future of the world.  I tried to get a grip but it was pointless so I just bawled like a baby.  I could hear the man with the video saying, “Now tell me people don’t believe what these stones say?  There is a woman weeping on the monument and that is proof of belief.”  How the hell did I wind up in this man’s video about the Georgia Guidestones?  Neither man tried to speak to me and I was pleased.  I didn’t drive there to have some religious debate or discuss my personal beliefs.  That’s what I have a blog for.

Engraved on the stones:

A message consisting of a set of ten guidelines or principles is engraved on the Georgia Guidestones in eight different languages, one language on each face of the four large upright stones. Moving clockwise around the structure from due north, these languages are: EnglishSpanishSwahiliHindiHebrewArabicChinese, andRussian.

  1. Maintain humanity under 500,000,000 in perpetual balance with nature.
  2. Guide reproduction wisely — improving fitness and diversity.
  3. Unite humanity with a living new language.
  4. Rule passion — faith — tradition — and all things with tempered reason.
  5. Protect people and nations with fair laws and just courts.
  6. Let all nations rule internally resolving external disputes in a world court.
  7. Avoid petty laws and useless officials.
  8. Balance personal rights with social duties.
  9. Prize truth — beauty — love — seeking harmony with the infinite.
  10. Be not a cancer on the earth — Leave room for nature — Leave room for nature.

So why was I crying?  Relief.  I felt a huge relief.  Maybe because my car made it and that was my goal.  No, that’s not why.  I cried because I am saved by the blood of Jesus Christ.  When I read on these huge tablets that the population of the Earth will be reduced to 500 million people I interpret that as the apocalypse that is written about in the Bible.  I’m not going to be one of the people left behind.  On December 21, 2012 the Mayan calendar ends.  What do a bunch of Mayan people know?  I’m thinking they knew more about the Heavens then we will ever learn before the end of times.  They didn’t just run out of rocks so there must be a reason the calendar ends on that day.  I was at the Mayan ruins and there was no shortage of stones.

My religious beliefs are out there.  I was raised in the Lutheran faith and I’m thankful for that.  I learned all the Bible stories, went to Sunday school and VBS over the summers.  I memorized the Lord’s Prayer, the Nicene Creed, Bible verses and songs.  I believe what it says in the Bible.  It’s not some fictional book full of crazy stories.  It’s a non-fiction book full of crazy stories.  All of the stories revolving around an alien named God who decided to create Earth and everything on it.

There were many people who came to see the stones in the 45 minutes I was there.  I could tell by watching them who knew what the stones were all about and who was getting a shock by way of huge, granite tablets that day.  Some were outraged and stated it was someone with money who wanted to cause a stir.  That theory doesn’t work for me.  The land had to be purchased, the monument drawn up on blueprints, and then taken to the granite company to be made and placed.  This all happened in 1979-1980 so if the goal was just to stir things up in the world, it was a complete failure.  Even in Georgia, people had no idea what I was talking about.  Dale’s sister Georgie lives less than 2 hours from the monument and had never heard about it.

It was hot on that hill and there was no shade available other than standing under the capstone of the monument.  Ying had crawled under my car to get out of the sun.  I would have left the car run if I had air-conditioning but that took a shit back when the car was still my brother Sam’s.  This trip has reminded me how luxurious cooled air is.  I texted Dale I was leaving the stones and coming home.  He asked why and I wrote back, “I saw what I came to see in GA.”  I pushed the home button on my GPS and was headed back to Pennsylvania.

My faith in God is stronger than it has ever been and I am thankful he watched over me on my pilgrimage to see the Georgia Guidestones.  ~P.

Want to read more about the Guidestones and why people feel the need to do this?

Click here  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Georgia_Guidestones

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Document Design at YCP

The Doc Design class at YCP was very helpful.  Here are a few designs I did or worked on.  The Spartan poster was mine alone and I hope it goes to print for the Fall 2012 term!

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Thanks for checking them out!

~P.

Want to read about Looners?

Hello all….I am not able to publish my paper on balloon fetishist just yet.

If I am submitting to a magazine, scholarship, competition or scholarly journal, I don’t believe I can have previously published what I submit.

That’s the bad news.

The good news is if you email me a request to my school address at pcrider@ycp.edu I will send a portion of the paper.  State in your email that you will not share the segment without giving credit to me and my blogsite.  Everyone gets the same thing.  A preview I suppose as it’s actually not finished.  😉

Thank you for supporting my writing and research!   It has been awesome!!!

Loon Writer and Happy Popper,

Pattie

Dear Meghan~missing you

Dear Meghan,

This afternoon, I just learned in person from Travis K that you were in a car accident and died.  I was making copies of the secrets from Lauren Robinson work of art “The Web of Secrets 2012” when Travis approached me.  He didn’t know what I was coping.  As soon as he told me I got goosebumps and looked down at the copier.  Meghan you are gone and I will never see or talk to you again.  We were both writing majors.  We shared story ideas, work-shopped story lines and enjoyed discussing art.  I wonder if one of the secrets I copied may have been yours…

I know you treasured life and you touched the lives of many.  You have been released from the earth to a much better place and even get wings to boot.  I am happy for you, but feel loss as expected.  Bless your surviving family.  God has a plan for you in heaven and I am certain it involves endless ink in a gold pen and sheets of the finest grade paper stock imaginable.

Rest in peace my friend,

Pattie

To Write a Murderer?

Corey Hollinger 2007

Would you write to an admitted and convicted murderer in prison?  At one point in my life I would have said “no way.”

Now, I was assigned to read a story about a man serving out his life sentence in prison in Pennsylvania.  I was curious about his life in prison.  It started when he was 16 and now he is 41.  http://girlboxer1970.com/2012/03/14/life-sentence-at-16/  I received an A+ on my review of the original article about this crime.

So, I typed two paragraphs to Corey Hollinger and I received six hand-written pages in return.  He doesn’t seem like a horrible person.  Actually, he seems like a pretty decent guy.  I could scan his letters and let you all read them but, I can sum them up much easier.  He works as a teacher’s aide teaching other prisoners English to earn their GED.  He enjoys almost all types of music.  He found God.  He believes he will get the chance of parole someday.  He works out and is in very good shape.  When he is paroled he wants to finish his college degree (he started college while in prison) and be an ordained minister.

At least he has hope.  I don’t see Pennsylvania every letting Corey out of prison, but that’s just my opinion.  Who am I to rain on his future parade?

(Corey doesn’t have access to the Internet so I can pretty much write whatever I want.)

I wrote Corey a “real letter” this time, explaining why I even know who he is.  I told him what I study in school.  How I’m trying to get through a divorce.  I even printed off some of my papers I wrote for college and some blogs to entertain him.  He will be the only person who reads my blogs off of paper!  I sent him copies of the paper I wrote about him and his little brother Tracy and my opinion piece on life sentences in Pennsylvania.  http://girlboxer1970.com/2012/03/20/life-without-parole-in-pa/

So I’m writing to a murderer…I never would have guessed.

~P.

The Abuse of Indian Children

The Carlisle Indian School in Carlisle, PA was doomed from the very beginning in 1879.  Establishing a school in a former a military barrack is not a conducive educational environment.  The relocation of Indian children, often without the consent of their parents, to this militia inspired location was inappropriate.  This and many other actions had negative results in the lives of almost all the children relocated to Carlisle and affected generations of Indians to come.

Richard Henry Pratt was an officer of the 10th Cavalry, and while he may have had good intentions, the Carlisle Indian School did not lead to positive results.  The first day at the school was a failure.

“The group arrived at Carlisle in the middle of the night, October 6, 1879. They stepped off the platform to be greeted by hundreds of townspeople, welcoming them and accompanying them to the army post. But when Pratt, Miss Mather and the children arrived at the empty military post, tired and hungry, there were no provisions awaiting them. No bedding, no food, no clothing – none of the requested necessities. Once again, Pratt had been thwarted by the BIA. (Bureau of Indian Affairs) The children slept on the floor in their blankets.”  (http://www.sd4history.com/Unit7/carlisle.htm)

Pratt removed the Indian children from the care of their parents to teach them to be like white people.  In 1879 there were no laws to protect one’s religion, minorities or children.  This was Pratt’s school to “Kill the Indian, save the man” and this slogan had two meanings.  Force the Indians to act like white men and to accept Christianity as their faith.  This may have sounded like a just cause but the actions taken to enforce the white man’s laws were abusive.  It took centuries for the “white man” to admit the actions taken during the school existence from 1879 to 1918 were not necessarily in the best interest of the Indian population.

“When children came to the school, the teachers cut their long hair. The students also got different clothes. No one would let them talk their own language. Many children became very homesick. Their teachers showed them how to read and write in English. They also taught them trades like farming, sewing, and baking. The Indian children were sent to church and Sunday School. Their teachers wanted them to know how to live like white people when they left the school.”  (http://home.epix.net/~landis/histry.html)

The Indians did not adapt quickly to their new environment.  The emotional toll was extreme and physically, their bodies were not able to fight off the diseases the white men brought with them.

“Illness and death among the children were common. Many of the children suffered from separation anxiety, smallpox and tuberculosis. As most of the children were sent back to their reservations, many others passed away at the school, which made it necessary for a cemetery. A hundred and ninety children are buried in the cemetery, with the majority of those buried are from the Apache tribe.” (http://christinemusser.suite101.com/carlisle-indian-school-a20733)

While there were success stories of Indians who were sent to Carlisle, the Pennsylvania Historical and Museum Commission stated in 2003 on a permanent marker located on the school grounds at the cemetery, “Despite idealistic beginnings, the school left a mixed and lasting legacy, creating opportunity for some students and conflicted identities for others.  In this cemetery are 186 graves of student who died while at Carlisle.”  (This number conflicts with the number of graves noted previously.)  (http://www.suite101.com/view_image.cfm/183702)

Regardless of 186 or 190 children, their deaths were senseless and were caused by the actions of Pratt and those who supported the assimilation of the American Indians.  The United States of America has acknowledged the inappropriateness of forcing the Indian children to change their heritage to suit the white men.  Now, in the 21st Century, the American Indians are encouraged to share their heritage, customs and religious beliefs with the foolish white men.

Geronimo stopped to visit Carlisle…did you know that?

~P.

Vinyl, Latex and Inflated fun

Hand Job available

Now I’ve been thinking about all the different fetishes there are…it’s almost endless.   I like the smell and feel of vinyl & latex.

Latex is a popular stimulant to some people.  It causes allergic reactions to others.  Balloons, condoms, clothing and more….The picture of the lady in black latex with the black cat is a friend of mine!

Vinyl is also a popular stimulant.  This isn’t anything new.  Many people like the feel and smell of vinyl.  Furniture, clothing, even records!  Some of that furniture just screams kinky fun!

Examples of inflatables, vinyl & latex that catch my eye (if only I could afford and had room for some of this stuff!!)

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What looks the most fun to you?

~P.

My own interview

Name or Alias:  Pattie Crider

Gender: F

Age: 41

Occupation:Student

What age did you find you liked balloons?  8

At what age did balloons become a part of sex for you? First time I was 14 and had a balloon from a party I had been at.  That night I had it in bed with me and I started to feel excited and warm while I rubbed the balloon (cheap, pink, oblong, and not even fully inflated) all over myself and eventually I slipped my underwear off to feel it completely naked and that was when I really learned how to masturbate.  I was scared of waking my friend who was in the bedroom and my sister.  The balloon was noisy!  Funny, I didn’t even know what an orgasm was back then and didn’t have one.  I just knew it felt pretty good.  It didn’t take long and I did learn what an orgasm was after a little practice.  😀

Is this fetish shared with your significant other? (boyfriend/girlfriend/wife/husband)

Yes, he knows.

Why or why not?  Because he will try anything new.

Do you reveal your fetish to family? Friends?  Some I have…no one really gives a shit what I’m doing with balloons and/or Dale. F’em if they do.

What about balloons do you find appealing? How they feel on my skin, the static, the squeaky noise, latex smell, popping them.  I think it would be fun to blow up balloons with my friends and video it to see who blow fastest.  Hehe

How do you involve balloons in a sexual experience?  Blowing them up while having sex or masturbating.  I like to hear how the sounds and words I make change with the balloon against my face.  I like to lick or kiss or bite them too.  Dale likes to put them between us during sex and popping it.

Do you find other objects that can hold air stimulating?  Yes: latex gloves, condoms, ultrasound wand covers, beach balls and inflatable pool toys.  Hmmm what else: pool inner tubes, pool rafts, air mattress, and this really odd latex contraption…it was kind of like a balloon in reverse.  The air was sucked out and I was trapped in seconds.  Way cool.

Are you sexually stimulated just by the sight of balloons? (at a traditional party) No.  Might take some balloons home with me.  lol

Does size, shape or color of the balloon make a difference?  I am drawn to the unique shapes, like fetish gloves and stockings.  I’ve seen both before but never thought about putting air in them.  That was new to me since beginning this research.  I like balloon art, one-of-a-kind balloon sculptures, pretty women with balloons.  Clear balloons, opaque, those gigantic balloons at car lots…I’ve seen videos of the huge balloons and would like to try those out.

Are helium balloons more attractive/stimulating than regular blown balloons?  no

If a balloon has a balloon inside, is that extra stimulating? Yeah, I kinda dig that.

Do you prefer blowing up balloons or inflating with helium? Blowing up

Do you ever fill balloons with something other than air? (water, sand, mayonnaise, pickle juice) Yes, but that was inspired by a friend.  I’ve filled them with water.  I been experimenting lately but find it to be messy and unpredictable.

Are the silver (foil) balloons appealing? No

Do you have a specific balloon memory from childhood? Good or bad? Just the one at age 14.  As an adult I’ve always had balloon popping games for my kids parties.  I “liked the balloons like a 5 year old likes balloon.” The kids had fun and that’s what it was about.

Do you like to pop balloons? Yes.  The more I pop them, the more I enjoy it.

Do you get attached to the balloons and hate when they pop?  Not really.  I draw on balloons sometimes just for fun but I’ve found permanent marker transfers easily to my face.

Do you have a favorite looner moment?  Balloon in the shower was memorable.

In your opinion is there any harm in a balloon fetish? (Physically, psychologically, etc.) No, unless it is being hidden from others and that bothers you.  Guilt, fear of others finding out, scared of being labeled a weirdo, pedophile, etc.

What do you believe other people think of Looners?  Weird, sexual deviant, pedophile.  Others seem to have little to no problem with balloon fetish.

Does being a Looner have any effect on your relationships with others?  No, and if it bothers someone they can bite me or my balloon.  My youngest son (18) is not happy about me posting on FB because it goes on  his wall.  I told him I couldn’t stop writing but I would change my setting so it wouldn’t post on his FB.  His friends apparently want to talk to him about what I write (in my blog overall) and he doesn’t want to hear about my divorce.  I told him to tell his friends “My mom is a writer.  I know she writes weird stuff.  You guys read it!”

What do you find to be the most enjoyable activity with a balloon? (smell, feel, static, popping sound, etc.)  The feel…it gives me goosebumps sometimes.  Nice!!

Any other comments please write as much as you would like.

(Why thank you Pattie.)

Much of this fetish is new to me.  I am open-minded.  Someone likes balloons, someone else handcuffs.  Another person likes whips and chains, caning, knives, leather, shoes, diapers…dressing in fuzzy animal costumes.  Hell, a local disc jockey on the radio in PA (Nipsey, The People’s DJ 105.7 FM) talks about his foot fetish all the time.

I am strong in faith.

Let people be who they are….God does the judging.

~P.

Life without parole in PA

Home sweet home....but does it have to be for life?

The Commonwealth of Pennsylvania does not offer the possibility of parole to prisoners that are sentenced to life.  This life without parole includes minors who have been sentenced to life in prison.  Based on that fact, life in prison without the possibility of parole should not be an option for sentencing.

Teenagers make poor decisions.  They jump into a situation without thinking about where it may take them.  The odds are already stacked against teenagers, especially those born into low-income families.  Households with absent parents allow children to grow up without rules, expectations or role models.  It is these children who turn into wild teenagers out on the streets, committing senseless crimes without considering the consequences.

Somewhere in Pennsylvania, an eighteen-year-old is out with his “friends” and they decide to rob a convenience store for quick cash and cigarettes.  “Joe” parks his car just out of reach of the camera lens.  He and his two friends jump out of the car and rush towards the store.  His friends are packing heat but Joe doesn’t know this.  There are no customers in the store and Joe follows “Frank” and “Ed” through the door with pantyhose pulled over their faces.  The owner’s wife dies after Frank accidentally shoots her in a panic.  Frank was sixteen, Ed was twenty-two, and all were three found guilty and sentenced to life in prison.  This is where the system fails.  People at this age could still be rehabilitated and exit prison a better person.

The life imprisonment of what most people still consider children becomes an enormous debt to PA.  A judge may sentence a minor as an adult and believe that is just punishment for shooting an unarmed woman for $120 and a carton of Newports.  It doesn’t matter if he meant to shoot her or not, the act has already happened and the result is his loss of freedom.  Reality has just hit home for all three and their young minds cannot grasp how they went from kicking it with friends, to prison until death do they part.

Pennsylvania needs to realize that putting its youth into prison for life is not a sensible action.  Rehabilitation is the key at this young age so they learn from their errors and get another chance to do right by mankind.  Based on a prisoner’s willingness and ability to change the learned behaviors of the past and accept responsibility for the future, they could be integrated back into society and have a positive effect in people’s lives.

A detention and rehabilitation system would benefit the offending youth of PA.  A chance to try again, but with strings attached.  After serving a sentence and receiving parole they must live by the laws of the commonwealth.  They are undeniably adults now and realize the severity of consequences for quick cash and smokes.    This is their opportunity to prove they can act as adults.

A successful system would greatly cut back the cost of operating a prison and give young prisoners this second try, under the state’s watchful eye.  The threat of going back to prison would be the motivator and that is enough to keep a former prisoner out of trouble.  This system would return a former wild-child back into civilization as a matured adult, ready to start a new life.

The current prisoners serving a life sentence should be reviewed on an individual basis.  Those who were sentenced as adults while under the age of eighteen should be viewed first.  Next should be those who were sentenced at age eighteen to twenty-five and so on until all have been reviewed.  A decision of each person in prison for life should be made to determine if they can be rehabilitated and return to society.

Those criminals in prison for life, especially the young prisoners, get left in a system that does nothing for them.  It could be said that this is just punishment for their crime, but if there is a chance of good coming from a teenager’s bad decision, PA should make that work to its advantage.  Give the youth of PA a second chance in society while their brain is still in the learning process.  These youths need role models, goals and most importantly, rules to follow to successfully recreate themselves for their departure from the prison system.  PA should not give young offenders life without parole because these youth need to have hope.  Hope gives them desire to be rehabilitated.  Otherwise, PA is just keeping an animal caged until it dies.

 

I received 100/100 with a note to spell out Pennsylvania next time.  LOL

~P.