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Mar 23, 2012

Vinyl, Latex and Inflated fun

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Now I’ve been thinking about all the different fetishes there are…it’s almost endless.   I like the smell and feel of vinyl & latex.

Latex is a popular stimulant to some people.  It causes allergic reactions to others.  Balloons, condoms, clothing and more….The picture of the lady in black latex with the black cat is a friend of mine!

Vinyl is also a popular stimulant.  This isn’t anything new.  Many people like the feel and smell of vinyl.  Furniture, clothing, even records!  Some of that furniture just screams kinky fun!

Examples of inflatables, vinyl & latex that catch my eye (if only I could afford and had room for some of this stuff!!)

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What looks the most fun to you?

~P.

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Mar 22, 2012

My own interview

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Name or Alias:  Pattie Crider

Gender: F

Age: 41

Occupation:Student

What age did you find you liked balloons?  8

At what age did balloons become a part of sex for you? First time I was 14 and had a balloon from a party I had been at.  That night I had it in bed with me and I started to feel excited and warm while I rubbed the balloon (cheap, pink, oblong, and not even fully inflated) all over myself and eventually I slipped my underwear off to feel it completely naked and that was when I really learned how to masturbate.  I was scared of waking my friend who was in the bedroom and my sister.  The balloon was noisy!  Funny, I didn’t even know what an orgasm was back then and didn’t have one.  I just knew it felt pretty good.  It didn’t take long and I did learn what an orgasm was after a little practice.  😀

Is this fetish shared with your significant other? (boyfriend/girlfriend/wife/husband)

Yes, he knows.

Why or why not?  Because he will try anything new.

Do you reveal your fetish to family? Friends?  Some I have…no one really gives a shit what I’m doing with balloons and/or Dale. F’em if they do.

What about balloons do you find appealing? How they feel on my skin, the static, the squeaky noise, latex smell, popping them.  I think it would be fun to blow up balloons with my friends and video it to see who blow fastest.  Hehe

How do you involve balloons in a sexual experience?  Blowing them up while having sex or masturbating.  I like to hear how the sounds and words I make change with the balloon against my face.  I like to lick or kiss or bite them too.  Dale likes to put them between us during sex and popping it.

Do you find other objects that can hold air stimulating?  Yes: latex gloves, condoms, ultrasound wand covers, beach balls and inflatable pool toys.  Hmmm what else: pool inner tubes, pool rafts, air mattress, and this really odd latex contraption…it was kind of like a balloon in reverse.  The air was sucked out and I was trapped in seconds.  Way cool.

Are you sexually stimulated just by the sight of balloons? (at a traditional party) No.  Might take some balloons home with me.  lol

Does size, shape or color of the balloon make a difference?  I am drawn to the unique shapes, like fetish gloves and stockings.  I’ve seen both before but never thought about putting air in them.  That was new to me since beginning this research.  I like balloon art, one-of-a-kind balloon sculptures, pretty women with balloons.  Clear balloons, opaque, those gigantic balloons at car lots…I’ve seen videos of the huge balloons and would like to try those out.

Are helium balloons more attractive/stimulating than regular blown balloons?  no

If a balloon has a balloon inside, is that extra stimulating? Yeah, I kinda dig that.

Do you prefer blowing up balloons or inflating with helium? Blowing up

Do you ever fill balloons with something other than air? (water, sand, mayonnaise, pickle juice) Yes, but that was inspired by a friend.  I’ve filled them with water.  I been experimenting lately but find it to be messy and unpredictable.

Are the silver (foil) balloons appealing? No

Do you have a specific balloon memory from childhood? Good or bad? Just the one at age 14.  As an adult I’ve always had balloon popping games for my kids parties.  I “liked the balloons like a 5 year old likes balloon.” The kids had fun and that’s what it was about.

Do you like to pop balloons? Yes.  The more I pop them, the more I enjoy it.

Do you get attached to the balloons and hate when they pop?  Not really.  I draw on balloons sometimes just for fun but I’ve found permanent marker transfers easily to my face.

Do you have a favorite looner moment?  Balloon in the shower was memorable.

In your opinion is there any harm in a balloon fetish? (Physically, psychologically, etc.) No, unless it is being hidden from others and that bothers you.  Guilt, fear of others finding out, scared of being labeled a weirdo, pedophile, etc.

What do you believe other people think of Looners?  Weird, sexual deviant, pedophile.  Others seem to have little to no problem with balloon fetish.

Does being a Looner have any effect on your relationships with others?  No, and if it bothers someone they can bite me or my balloon.  My youngest son (18) is not happy about me posting on FB because it goes on  his wall.  I told him I couldn’t stop writing but I would change my setting so it wouldn’t post on his FB.  His friends apparently want to talk to him about what I write (in my blog overall) and he doesn’t want to hear about my divorce.  I told him to tell his friends “My mom is a writer.  I know she writes weird stuff.  You guys read it!”

What do you find to be the most enjoyable activity with a balloon? (smell, feel, static, popping sound, etc.)  The feel…it gives me goosebumps sometimes.  Nice!!

Any other comments please write as much as you would like.

(Why thank you Pattie.)

Much of this fetish is new to me.  I am open-minded.  Someone likes balloons, someone else handcuffs.  Another person likes whips and chains, caning, knives, leather, shoes, diapers…dressing in fuzzy animal costumes.  Hell, a local disc jockey on the radio in PA (Nipsey, The People’s DJ 105.7 FM) talks about his foot fetish all the time.

I am strong in faith.

Let people be who they are….God does the judging.

~P.

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Mar 21, 2012

Balloon slideshow

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A collection of balloon pictures I like!  ~P.

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Mar 20, 2012

Dear John~the call is free

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Dear John,

   Why is it so difficult to just let Tesla call me once a day?  I don’t care if it’s before bed, after breakfast, after school, before her shower, after she eats dinner….WHENEVER!  When I get Tesla for those 4 days a month that the court orders you to allow me time with her, I STILL ask her to call you.  I can’t help it if she consistantly puts off the call.  Sometimes she puts it off long enough that I forget.  I don’t want to make Tesla feel like I am forcing her to do anything.  She tells me she wants to talk to me so based on that and the fact that she also says you tell her no she can’t call or you limit how much I can speak to her is BULLSHIT. 

Our child is smart.  Smart enough to know where she is catching all the poison ivy and smart enough to figure out who has a poisonous attitude. 

I demand to speak to Tesla tomorrow after school.  I’m sure Heather or LaDonna will pass this message on to you.  If not I can always email LaDonna or text Heather so someone in that freaking household gets the message to you to give Tesla a damn phone.

Finally, I am having a birthday party for Tesla.  I realize you and Heather are throwing a big whooptie-doo at our house with horse-rides and the whole works.  Will Heather try to have the catering done with her food stamps this year?

 Sad, since all those parties were my ideas for MY child but now that you have all these other children, Tesla is just thrown in as part of the side show.  Remember all the plans I had to do things for Tesla’s birthdays, vacations we would take her too, where she would go to school.  I doubt you do…you rarely let me get a word in edge-wise and usually my ideas were worthless to you. 

Now your ideas on the other hand were priceless!  Build a huge addition onto the house, cash checks from customers, buy expensive vacation timeshares, pay employees under the table, buy big boy toys, get a new pool….the list goes on and on.  That bright idea of filing for divorce to “scare” me into running the business your way and having lots of cash to spend on stuff you wanted….hows that working out for you?

You have been nothing but a thorn in my side for too many years now.  I can’t wait until all this drama wraps up and reality sets in for you and whoever you’re sleeping with in our bed that day.

And PLEASE I don’t need to even SEE you during exchange days.  The fact that you MUST walk up to my car and say something that you could have texted or emailed me proves to me that you just can’t stay away.  Deep down you must kick yourself in the ass for not having the patience to let your wife heal physically and mentally after losing our second child.  You can’t help your so self-centered.  That’s why I’m thrilled that you filed for divorce.  I’ll be in it til the end and….

The end is near,

~P.

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Mar 20, 2012

Life without parole in PA

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Home sweet home....but does it have to be for life?

The Commonwealth of Pennsylvania does not offer the possibility of parole to prisoners that are sentenced to life.  This life without parole includes minors who have been sentenced to life in prison.  Based on that fact, life in prison without the possibility of parole should not be an option for sentencing.

Teenagers make poor decisions.  They jump into a situation without thinking about where it may take them.  The odds are already stacked against teenagers, especially those born into low-income families.  Households with absent parents allow children to grow up without rules, expectations or role models.  It is these children who turn into wild teenagers out on the streets, committing senseless crimes without considering the consequences.

Somewhere in Pennsylvania, an eighteen-year-old is out with his “friends” and they decide to rob a convenience store for quick cash and cigarettes.  “Joe” parks his car just out of reach of the camera lens.  He and his two friends jump out of the car and rush towards the store.  His friends are packing heat but Joe doesn’t know this.  There are no customers in the store and Joe follows “Frank” and “Ed” through the door with pantyhose pulled over their faces.  The owner’s wife dies after Frank accidentally shoots her in a panic.  Frank was sixteen, Ed was twenty-two, and all were three found guilty and sentenced to life in prison.  This is where the system fails.  People at this age could still be rehabilitated and exit prison a better person.

The life imprisonment of what most people still consider children becomes an enormous debt to PA.  A judge may sentence a minor as an adult and believe that is just punishment for shooting an unarmed woman for $120 and a carton of Newports.  It doesn’t matter if he meant to shoot her or not, the act has already happened and the result is his loss of freedom.  Reality has just hit home for all three and their young minds cannot grasp how they went from kicking it with friends, to prison until death do they part.

Pennsylvania needs to realize that putting its youth into prison for life is not a sensible action.  Rehabilitation is the key at this young age so they learn from their errors and get another chance to do right by mankind.  Based on a prisoner’s willingness and ability to change the learned behaviors of the past and accept responsibility for the future, they could be integrated back into society and have a positive effect in people’s lives.

A detention and rehabilitation system would benefit the offending youth of PA.  A chance to try again, but with strings attached.  After serving a sentence and receiving parole they must live by the laws of the commonwealth.  They are undeniably adults now and realize the severity of consequences for quick cash and smokes.    This is their opportunity to prove they can act as adults.

A successful system would greatly cut back the cost of operating a prison and give young prisoners this second try, under the state’s watchful eye.  The threat of going back to prison would be the motivator and that is enough to keep a former prisoner out of trouble.  This system would return a former wild-child back into civilization as a matured adult, ready to start a new life.

The current prisoners serving a life sentence should be reviewed on an individual basis.  Those who were sentenced as adults while under the age of eighteen should be viewed first.  Next should be those who were sentenced at age eighteen to twenty-five and so on until all have been reviewed.  A decision of each person in prison for life should be made to determine if they can be rehabilitated and return to society.

Those criminals in prison for life, especially the young prisoners, get left in a system that does nothing for them.  It could be said that this is just punishment for their crime, but if there is a chance of good coming from a teenager’s bad decision, PA should make that work to its advantage.  Give the youth of PA a second chance in society while their brain is still in the learning process.  These youths need role models, goals and most importantly, rules to follow to successfully recreate themselves for their departure from the prison system.  PA should not give young offenders life without parole because these youth need to have hope.  Hope gives them desire to be rehabilitated.  Otherwise, PA is just keeping an animal caged until it dies.

 

I received 100/100 with a note to spell out Pennsylvania next time.  LOL

~P.

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Mar 17, 2012

They put what in my cheeseburger? – The York Daily Record

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Mar 17, 2012

York College PA~Casino Night

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Had a blast at the CAB sponsered Casino Night!  Tesla and I played Texas Hold’em, Roulette, and Blackjack.  Our favorite game was Blackjack.  We lost our $50,000 each in no time back to the house.  Everyone who attended was having a great time.  The event atmosphere was very close to that of a casino.  There were flashing lights, two huge tv screens with music videos, real gaming tables with dealers.  CAB really impressed me with a great night of fun giving the feeling of being a highroller.  It was great fun on campus for everyone. ~P.

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Mar 16, 2012

wanting the rules changed

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Even though I’m volunteering at Tesla’s school tomorrow, I’m not “allowed” to take her home right after school at 3:15PM.  John said he is “not making a habit of letting me have Tesla on Fridays.”  What the hell…he’s not making a habit of letting me see her at all!

Well, at first I was told I had to bring her right back to the house to change clothes and for me to sign a paper stating that she was permitted to leave early with me.   When I told him over the phone all that was unnecessary and that Tesla will remember all this bullshit he puts us through….

He  responded via text: Only thing she’s gonna remember is you constantly wanting the rules changed to suit you so if that’s all you gonna do then you can wait til 5 o’clock to get her at the house.

This man seriously does not see how his actions are affecting Tesla.

So far, he has ignored my responses to his text.

1. “Just let her leave with me.  There is no need for paper signing or clothes changing.  That is your hang up.  I can stop before I go in and sign your release.  Don’t let her wear clothes that you are so worried about.  Then there is no reason for me to drive her back to there and sign in front of her.

2. Do not punish Tesla by making her wait to leave at 5 PM.  There is no reason.

3. Are you sending in the note?  Yes or no?

Most likely, I won’t hear anything from him and he will make Tesla and I abide by HIS wishes.  Self-centered as always.

~P.

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Mar 15, 2012

Dear Doug~ Let’s move it already

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Note the date on this letter from my lawyer to John’s.  We never received a response.  This is why it is dragging on forever.

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Mar 14, 2012

Dear John~Bitterman

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Dear John,

You are the former love of my life.

Let’s just be honest here.  Now you are a bitter man.

It’s the only explanation I can come up with that makes sense.

Why else, when I request to see our child would you refuse?

Yesterday you said Tesla had nothing going on after school today that I could “go to watch”.  I asked then to have Tesla after school and immediately you said “We’re to busy, the other kids have lacrosse and ….”  When you were done with your lame ass answer to why Tesla couldn’t go with me I said, “I don’t care what Heather’s kids are doing, I want to see my kid.”

So this afternoon I texted you about getting Tesla and you texted back, “We have plans tonight.”

Me- You said tt didn’t have anything going on…the other kids did.”

J-“I forgot we have company coming over for dinner tonight.”

Me-Yeah…it was SO important u forgot about it.  Like Tesla would care either if she were given the opportunity to say what she wants to do tonight…anyone can see u r keeping tt from me.”

J-“and can’t you see that I make exceptions to the order all the time.”

Me-Not really.  She could spend more time with me.  It would not hurt anyone.  Not that u would agree.

J-“apparently you never read the order in which states every other weekend.”

Me- Yes..but that can be changed so she can see me more.  U can explain y she isn’t allowed to see me more.  I know why…cause u feel u must control people.  Ur selfish and bitter.

I didn’t get any response after that.  He feels the court order entitles him to limit our time together.

So John…let’s see how much time you have allowed Tesla to see me (as long as I signed a paper stating I understand this is not something that you will allow to happen regularly because you wouldn’t want a pattern forming of your child spending time with her mother.)

Adding up all the hours you have allowed me to spend with Tesla, without you present since this custody order was put in place in November comes to a grand total of: 15 hours  It’s all documented to keep me in my place.

You “allowed” Tesla and I 15 hours together, always under the condition that I return her to our house by the stated time or you will notify the police.  Really, it does feel like I pick her up from prison and return her to her warden.  John, your law enforcement career ended years ago.  You aren’t a prison guard anymore….stop treating the people in your life like they are your ward.

Still doing time,

~P.

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